What now?

One of my coworkers told me today that after this project is over, she is going to work for her family's business. (Yay for her!) I also found out that the project manager and superintendent may know where they are going for the next project... and if I were to go there too I would be at least 9.5 hours from my man's hometown, and roughly 19 hours from where he is now. No. No. I can't move there. I don't know what city it would be in, but it's not like that would make a difference based on the fact it would be 9+ hours from him. No. 

I don't want to keep doing this, I can't. I can't handle the distance any more. Breaking up is not an option. He is the reason I go to work every day. I only go to work because at the end of the day I'm one day closer to seeing him again, and I can take that money and put it into savings for future use, like moving expenses.

On our mini road trip to OK

Ugh. I wish I had a family business to go to... I wish this was easier. I wish we weren't long distance, I can't take it any more. We've only been LD for about 4 months, and I can't take it any more. 3 more months of this project, and then who knows where I'll be. He doesn't even know where he will be... I know I can't stress out too much about this, because it's all in His timing, right?



Recently it's become very clear to me that I have to practice patience. Things will get easier with more patience. Things will make more sense, and I have a feeling they will work out, if I am able to be more patient. So I'm trying. After listening to a recent series from NPCC, I've thought more about where I am. What I am doing, and what I want to be doing. My answer? I have no clue. I have no idea what I "should" be doing or even want to be doing. I guess all I can do right now is pray that God will help me find my way, and keep doing what I'm doing.

No matter what life brings

So in my last update I said that I was moving to Dallas. Well, I have officially moved. My stuff is here, but I am still very much in boxes. (Makes cooking a little challenging, haha) I've actually been here for a week, although it doesn't feel like it. Well, I was in LA for most of last week. I'm going to be traveling between the two cities every other week. It's going to be sort of fun, because I'll get to see family that I have in LA. Less fun because there's a 2 hour time change between here and there, and even less fun because I'll be away from my kitties for two weeks every month.

My man stayed in ATL and so on top of my traveling every other week we are also dealing with a long distance relationship. After being in the same city for a while-with no school commitments- it became clear to me just how much I need him in my life. So I'm struggling with the fact that our relationship is now texts during the day, nightly phone calls and skype dates. Don't get me wrong, I am happy. I am less than thrilled that this is what our relationship has become, but it has to. And I'm okay with it. Not happy, but okay. From what I can tell, he's feeling the same way I am about this. I cannot speak for him, but through our phone calls I can tell he misses me just as much as I miss him.

So, I am now a traveler. I'm adjusting to the life-style. I'm not sure how well I am adjusting yet, but I am adjusting. I need to find the motivation to unpack myself out of boxes so I can feel like I actually live here. Since most of my stuff is still packed away, it's hard for me to feel like I do live here. It's getting there. Slowly-very slowly. I'm trying to unpack a box a day. And, well, I unpacked a few boxes today. But I haven't found places for everything I unpacked yet, so why did I unpack? Now my stuff is just... everywhere.

Anyway, I need to pack tomorrow for LA and do a little cleaning before I go to bed, and I'm tired. Tomorrow is going to be busy for me, my flight leaves at 5:57am tomorrow. I am going to be tired Monday if I don't get to bed early tomorrow, which means I should go to bed early tonight. So, until next time, dear readers.


PS If you get the chance, check out northpointonline.tv and watch the message titled "This One Thing". Nehemiah 3:6 is helping me through this tough situation. I am focusing on Him. I have to, otherwise I won't make it.